Did everything just taste purple?

It's harder than you think right now. I feel so lost at the moment. I am trying to maintain my sense of togetherness. I'm not winning that battle. For those of you who do not know, my dad is not doing very well. To tell you the truth, there's very little that is going well. Tomorrow we are meeting with his doctor to find out what is really going on. Although, I already know it doesn't look good. I know, God is in control & He can do anything. It's a lot easier to maintain when I don't think about it in terms of my dad, directly. Right now it seems that there is a lot of neurological damage. The doctor wants to wait until Wednesday & do another C/T scan to see if by chance there is any improvment. More waiting. I want to thank those of you who have responded to my e-mail & told me just what I am trying to maintiain...that His will be done. It's much easier to say. I know it's true. I prayed that at the beginning of this ordeal, but it doesn't really make it any easier. I don't feel myself slipping away from His comfort. I've gone down that road & I don't want to do it again. It's not worth being out of God's will just for my own selfish reasons. Plus my dad always says "...if it's God's will." There was a time when he wasn't able to say that. I praise God that he can now. So whatever God has in store, I will do my best to accept as His will. Even so, I'm still human. I could relly use a good friend right now. Those of you who know me well, know that I am very close to my dad. Right now I feel like he is the only person who cares for me so much that he was invested in my life at every point. But I do want to say thank you, Becca, for being there for me. I don't want to discount you at all. I know that I can count on you.

There are always going to be things that I will have no control over. But I can control my actions and how my faith will shine through. My mom needs help through this as well. As does my sister & nephew. We still do not know what tomorrow brings. But I do desire that this be my prayer: "What time I am afraid, I will trust in Thee." Psalm 56:3. No matter what I know that God is there for me too. He will help me through this. I can't imagine not having His comfort in my life. Thank you for listening...'til next time...