Did everything just taste purple?

No real reason for the title, but I love that Caedmon's call song---feels like a Caedmon's sort of day. Today is Saturday and I've pretty much just been a bum today. I haven't done anything...I mean nothing. Well, I drove to Taco Bell, but that doesn't really count.
Tonight I'm debating about church tomorrow. I don't know if I'm going, where I'm going, or what to think about it. I went to a different church last week and really liked it. Some of the things in the service threw me off a bit, but nothing major. For the first time in a really long time after leaving a service, I was actually feeling good about spiritual matters and it even inspired me to read my Bible, which hasn't happened in a while. The thing is...I'm not sure if I should even be in church right now. That sounds really weird to say, but I really don't know how to describe it. My roommate is the only person that really understands that, but I'm afraid I may be adding to her reasons not to go back to it. I don't think I have that much of an influence over her, but I'm not helping the situation. We had a really good conversation about it a few weeks ago. She gave me some insight and I tried to do the same. I still truly believe what I believe---that Jesus Christ is the son of God and that He gave His life in my place and lived again 3 days later so that I could be forgiven of my sins and live with Him forever. that's awesome! I completely, without a doubt believe this with everything I have and am. But I just don't feel...I don't know...I already put it into words, so now, I can't make it make sense. I swear, it's like if I say it once, people better have heard me, b/c it will never come out the same again. geez. But if I do decide to go...I need to be really nice...esp. to certain people. Not because I feel like I have to be, but b/c i want to be. Never do anything unless you want to---I have to keep telling myself that, lately anyway.
It's getting late and I should really go to bed, I'm extremely tired...such a busy day and all...well, til next time...