Did everything just taste purple?

I was already in bed, had my stereo turned on, adjusted my pillows, set my alarm, and I got out of bed to turn on the computer. I had this overwhelming urge to blog, and now I really don't know why. I was just gonna write in my journal, but I remembered I left that in my car, which is parked on the other side of the complex. But that's okay...

Spring break is over and I am left with the feeling of apathy. Well, not completely, I did study tonight, but I just don't want to be here. It took so much for me to get in my car yesterday and make the trip back to Norman. It's crazy. I really don't know why. But break was good. I got to spend a lot of time with my family. I love to do that. There was a time when I just wanted to get out of Jay and stay away from everyone there, but with all of the events of the past two years, I've really realized how important my family is to me. I really can't live without them.

I've been thinking a lot lately about the Fall. I don't know if I'm coming back. I really want to graduate and go somewhere else (preferably NE), but I can't guarantee that's what I'll be doing. I also feel this "urge" to go back home and hang out there for a bit to help my parents out. It's been a crazy past couple of days---my mind is everywhere.

So, I finally got to talk to my friend that I mentioned a while ago. I was thinking that maybe I was being ignored...geez, leave it to me to make it all about me! ~Anyway...he's just been going through some strange things (which I knew) and he didn't really want to be around anyone or talk---as if I don't know that feeling. So, I understand where he's coming from in that perspective. But we got to hang out and talk a little. He seems to be doing better, I think things are settling a bit. That's good.

I was reading my friend's blog today. She is such a beautiful person with some amazing insight. I always like reading her blogs--I feel better after I do. The most recent topic was about boys complaining about not having girlfriends. Wow, I can relate to her about the guy friend thing. She has an interesting perspective on this situation and I like what she had to say. It was actually kinda funny.

So I'm trying this vegetarian thing. lol. We'll see how long this lasts. Actually, I'm trying to make it to the end of the semester. Sara says I'm practically a vegetarian anyway, so I may as well commit. I think I'll really miss chicken though. lol. It's weird. I am wondering though, can I eat eggs? I mean they were a potential chicken...It really doesn't matter, I don't like eggs anyway, but sometimes I crave scrambled eggs. But I didn't buy any tonight when I went shopping...we'll see.

Lol...another Seth Green moment. I actually watched Buffy the Vampire Slayer last night b/c he was on it. Not a very good show, but he was pretty cute. I seriously don't know what it is about him *rolls eyes*. He's not really conventionally cute, but there's jsut something about him. Maybe b/c he's such a little guy, I dunno. I do know that it's not his characters that he plays (Scott Evil, a werewolf?, etc), but I really like him in interviews and stuff. He just seems really sincere. I guess the nerdy-ness appeals to me. lol.

Well, I guess I should crash since I have to get up and study and then make an appearance at work tomorrow night. Anyway...'til next time...