Did everything just taste purple?

I should so be studying, however, i really felt the need to blog, or just journal of some sort. I'm not even sure where this is going at the moment. I could have really used someone to talk to, however everyone seemed to be unavailable, or unwilling, as the case may be. Anyway...there are so many thoughts going through my head. Finals are here and I am so stressed out about them. I had one today, it wasn't too bad, but i know i could have done better. Tomorrow night's is going to kill me, but it will only take a few hours, lol.

Okay...that was way off track. Tonight, well, lately, i've been doing a lot of thinking. Do i need to stay here another year? I'm not thinking about transferring. I guess just taking some time off---and going home to help Mom & Dad out. Now that Mom is seeing this doctor, and the uncertainty of what will happen with that, I'm thinking that maybe with my lease being up at the end of this month, it's time to go home and see what I can do. I don't know what I should do. I know that I'm not entirely happy right now. I know that most of the time i am thinking about these things and what's going to happen. It's just a lot to deal with. I'm wondering if things would be different if I was there to help out a little and take some of the pressures off of my mom and dad. Then i start to wonder if it's really my motivation or if it's just everything here that is making me want to change so badly. Of course, i know that one year isn't that long and then i could go anywhere. But will I? If things don't change w/ M & D, or if they get worse...I don't even want to think about it. Some may say that these things aren't really my concern. Why not? Family is family. I feel the need to take care of what I can, if I can. I don't know what I'm going to do. This isn't the first time I've contemplated these thoughts, nor will it be the last, i'm sure.

On a different note, 1 final down, 3 to go...well, 'til next time...