Did everything just taste purple?

I’m not sure why, I just feel strange. I don’t know if it has something to do with stress, or the pressure everyone is putting on me to figure out what I want to do with my life. For the love, it’s my life! The more people ask me, the less I want to share my thoughts. On another note, I’m feeling very unloved…and unlovable. I’m not in a very good state of mind at the moment, I s’pose. It’s not that I don’t have good friends or family…I just am not right with the world, so to speak. Getting up in the morning seems to be more challenging recently than most days. Doing things that I like are hard. Right now, I just want to quit. I want everything to go away and I want to start something new…it doesn’t even have to be real. I would rather it wasn’t. I know none of this is making any sense, but I don’t know how else to say what I’m feeling. I’m not a very open person anyway, so this is as open as I get---while being completely obscure. *sigh* Something’s gotta give---and soon. I’m not happy. Of course, what does that really mean? It would be nice to at least identify with some of the characteristics of being happy. Maybe it’s b/c I’m not going to be able to see my family for a while. I don’t know. Maybe it’s b/c I’m just me. How is that going to change?