Did everything just taste purple?

Okay, so I got really pissed off tonight. I saw some things that were really uncalled for and it upset me. Later I realized that these things won't matter in the long run so for now, they aren't worth the time or the effort of being upset about. God, ya live & ya learn. Although it doesn't do much for my trust issues. I guess I had good cause to be cautious. I would have said something, but the opportunity didn't present itself. Perhaps another time...and maybe not. I don't want to be bothered by the same shit over and over again. It's ridiculous and I'm pretty much done. I can't change anything and at this point, I really don't think I want to. I don't feel like going in circles anymore, especially when I don't feel like it's real.

Tomorrow I'm going to talk to a friend of mine. Perhaps that will help clear my head a bit. It can't hurt, right? I know I can count on this friend to at least give me some perspective. I'm not sure what we'll talk about yet, but I know it will help.

Everybody called tonight. Wow, I guess I needed some friend-time. It still amazes me how well my friends know me. Even those that I've made over the past few months can pinpoint my emotions in many areas. It's good, I guess, to have people know me so well. It's an indication that they care, or are at least paying attention. haha. Of course, the cynic in my always says, "yeah, but don't let them know too much...it could come back to haunt you." Let people in? or don't? Usually no. But sometimes I do and then I find out that that's a mistake. I don't know where I was going with this. I'm not in a very optimistic mood right now. Can't imagine why not...

It's time for bed, but I'm convinced that I can't sleep. Damn. I think I'll only stick to caring about family from now on. trust: Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing. Nice word...too bad it doesn't mean much. Well...'til next time...