Did everything just taste purple?

I don't exactly know why, but this word has been on my mind today. All day long, I've been thinking about it. (a)The state or quality of being fully grown or developed.(b)The state or quality of being mature. Growing as a person, understanding more of who you are and who others are. These things become more fine tuned as we age. I can see this growing process in a lot of the decisions that I make lately. I am under the impression that in life, people take different paths and do so by their own choices. No one else can be blamed for what goes wrong in another's life. It depends on how one perceives the situation. Taking responsibility for your actions and decisions is a sign of maturity. I remember how things were in high school. When nothing was solved and everything was everyone else's fault. It was easy to say 'the sky is falling'--and I blame you. But as we get older, hopefully we don't fall into those same patterns. Hopefully we've learned from those situations and taken the opportunity to be mature and work through things. Of course, this is a nice little utopia I've created here. I know better. Sometimes those things just slip in and it's hard to overcome. I'm convinced that when I finally make it to a mature state, say adulthood, that I will be able to work through situations...or at least try. I know that I will have help and I can face it---without being resentful in any way. I am thankful for the people in my life who show me that there are things worth fighting for and things that just aren't worth the fight.

Concerning life and other things...I am ready for a break. I shouldn't be stressed right now, but I really am. I have some things to think about and some things to do. There is so much I need to do and so much I want to do, but I am not sure how to go about them. I know I'm ready to cut out what isn't working. As I've said before, if it's not improving your life in any way, get rid of it. This pertains to a lot of things right now. At least one thing is gone. I just need to really think about some things.

I think I will take some time for myself tomorrow. It will be a good time to relfect on some things. There are so many things that are up in the air at the moment. I need to just think. I'm nervous about some things. I know some things aren't going to work out. I can deal with that. I also know that I need to decide on some things soon. I'm not really sure what my decisions may be yet. I guess we'll see.

One last note. I had a great time tonight. I hung out with the gang and had a great time. I wasn't really in a social mood, which kinda came through. Sorry guys. But it was fun. I just wish I'd had more energy. My mood was pretty much how it was all day long. But as you can see, I've been doing a lot of thinking. *sigh* I'm gonna miss everyone, but at the same time, it will be great to get away. I actually wish I could leave now. Just start all over and be gone. That would be best. Well...'til next time...