Did everything just taste purple?

Okay, so there are a lot of things going on right now. Looking for a job, quitting jobs, living situations...etc. Then there's the matter of me not being completely forthcoming in my blog. My god, this is what it's for right?

I guess people really feel comfortable telling others things online. It makes some peole nervous, which is understandable. I just get the feeling that it may be the only way some people can be completely honest with others. That's cool.

As for my blog...I honestly don't care if people read this or not. It's just a way for me to get my thoughts down. Anyway...like I said, forthcoming...

These past few months have been crazy. Trying to decide what was next in my life and not finding anything that really made me sit up and take notice and then with all the 'drama' that reminded me of high school I had seriously about had enough. But there is no reason to be frustrated over things that other people do. I mean, no matter what, you can't change some things. Esp. when people can't see beyond themselves. I can't worry about that. It's sad b/c nothing was resolved, but trust was broken and that can't be replaced. It's really hard to trust people when their words don't match their actions...well depending on the parites involved. Kind of a tangent...but oh well. I've had friendships fall apart before--everyone has. People change---that's acceptable. I know that people can't be depended on too much b/c eventually someone will get screwed. Point & case...

A lot of that goes into work. I just don't like having to deal with some of the things that are occurring there, which is why I'm giving it up. I would love to continue, but it's hard to want to be somewhere when I don't feel very effective. I hate that this program isn't what it used to be. It's really not the program...I mean, Senior staff is great. We have lost a lot of really good volunteers & I feel that the kids are suffering b/c of this. It's not the entire program & it's not every child, but there are definitely things happening that are not cool. And I'm really not being petty...I'm not the only one who has noticed. *sigh* I don't know. I guess leaving isn't really fixing it, is it?

I've had some interesting conversations lately. People have been coming out of the woodwork it seems. I have had contact with a few old friends this week. It's kind of strange, but good. I like hearing from them. And it seems that they have to be the ones to contact me b/c I am terrible about keeping in touch. Why do people put up w/ me? I have no idea.

Anyway...I'm getting sleepy, so...'til next time...