Did everything just taste purple?

Okay, so I know that would not be possible, even if I were Alfalfa, but have you ever had one of those weeks? I swear...As if I'm not stressed enough about my upcoming chemistry tests and how incredibly bad I'm doing in calc...today was the mother of all days gone bad. Okay, I know that my life has seen worse, but of all days...my intentions were to get up and study all day b/c I have so much to do. I got up, ate breakfast, got ready, followed Sara out the door to go to B&N to STUDY! And I turn onto Lindsey at approximately 12:05 p.m. and driving along and from braum's parking lot comes this huge white car and crashes right into my door! Yeah! I was like, "CRAP!" Of all days. Anyway...so, I pull over into the parking lot of Sooner Wash and get out of my car to see if she is okay, which she is, thankfully. And why wouldn't she be? She was driving the freakin' Titanic! Which would make my car the iceberg? Anyway...She calls NPD and we wait...and we wait...and we wait...about an hour later, we decide just to exchange info and she goes on her merry little way. wait, that's not fair, she was very nice and very apologetic about it all. So, during the waiting, I'm trying to contact my mother (of course), but it's her lunch hour so she's nowhere to be found. I swear, my mom needs a cell phone. but i do manage to contact my sister who gets a little frantic (but that's Karm) and tells me she will try to find Mom. Anyway...I call the PD again b/c I'm totally clueless about all of this----have I ever been in an accident? No! Maybe I shoulda called Kamilah. Finally a cop shows up and my mom calls me simultaneously. So, I answer my phone and tell Mom that I will call her back. Wel, the cop was really nice and told me that if I had any problems w/ the woman to contact him. So, I came home and decided that I am not going anywhere else today. Bu not entirely true b/c I now have to go to the other side of Norman and get an estimate. Then they can begin work whenever they set up an appointment for me. Plus I get a rental car for however long it takes them. It's just a pain. The weird thing is, is that for the past month or so, I had had this feeling like I was gonna be involved in an accident. I dunno. Maybe my psychic abilities are expanding beyond traffic lights. So, anyway...that's the gist of my day. Yay to be me! But now I'm just wondering what next? However, the good news is that we are both fine---no one was hurt. I could have been much worse, but my car is pretty much fine. Just a few injuries to my driver-side door, but hopefully w/in a week or two, Oscar will be back to his old self. (Yes, I named my car Oscar.) Well...'til next time...

And the saga continues...Okay, so I go to get the estimate...They decide that I need my rental today. Drama, drama, drama! So, after getting seriously upset w/ the first guy who tried to get me a rental car, I was finally able to get a car through a second company, which was much nicer than the first. So, for anyone who cares, if you have to rent a car, go w/ Enterprise, NOT HERTZ!!! Just a suggestion. So, now I'm driving a Grand Prix. But only temporarily. We'll see how this turns out. Hopefully, my car will be ready by next Wednesday, but if not, then I'm stuck w/ a rental for a bit. The horrid details aren't important enough for me to go into, plus it would just stress me out again. so, I'm lettin it go. Anyway...'til next time...

Yeah, that's it. I totally feel like a stalker. But tonight there was a breakthrough, lol. Okay, so I'm talking about the guy from HT again. He's just such a cutie! Wow...enough for me to blog about. *rolls eyes* Anyway...I don't just go there to see him. I love that place and I was on a study break. And, of course, I couldn't decide on anything, so I was in there a while and walked out w/ nothing. But back to the breakthrough...I actually had a conversation w/ him. Sort of. He was wearing a Clash t-shirt and I commented on it and we kinda talked abt the Clash and other bands. Then it was over and we both went on w/ our lives. lol. How sad is that? Anyway...

Other than that, I've been a total slacker today. I studied a little bit, but not as much as I should have. So I decided I'm not going to bed tonight until I get some things done, which of course I am putting off doing at the moment. Snood is much more important. ;)

Last night I ended up in Shawnee. Not my intentions, but I really felt the need to buy a new cd. I tried Hastings, here in Norman...but no. Nothing there. So I decided to check out CD Warehouse in Shawnee. And I bought 2 cds. I bought Wish, by the Cure, and a Radiohead cd ( I can't remember the name right now). I love both of them. Both incredible! Anyway...I decided to stop and say hey to Manda. I'm glad I did. We talked for a bit, which was good. And Doty called me while I was there (weird), although he talked to Manda more, lol. Go fig. Anyway...it was good to see Manda. we haven't talked in a while and needed some girl time. It was really good.

I suppose I should go do my hw. Blah:( But first...one more game of Snood. :) 'til next time...

Today is a good day (so far). I dont' have any classes, I'm not working today, but I do have an appointment on campus. :/ Anyway...I just had lunch with a friend, whom I haven't seen in quite some time. we had some catching up to do. It was really good to see her. I met her at the church I used to go to here in Norman. Wow I don't really see much of those people, I don't see much of any people, lol.

I felt so bad yesterday. I had this terrible headache all day, but it finally went away around 10 last night. So I decided to catch up on a little Harry Potter. Now I'm totally addicted again and I can't focus on studying. This is not good b/c I have a major test next week and I know I really need to focus on it. I truly need to work on discipline.

I realized today that I have not seen my friend, Andy, all semester. I'm wondering if he is still here at OU. I know he was struggling a bit and wasn't sure how things were gonna turn out. But I also know he says that every semester and things always come out just fine. I hope he's still here and I hope I run into him soon.

So this vegetarian thing is harder than I thought. I ate a salad last night around 9 or so. I think ithis new thing makes me hungry more often. I'm not sure why though. I need to find some recipes or I'm gonna get bored and go back to meat...well, chicken anyway. Geez, it hasn't even been a week and I'm already thinking about stopping. Well, that's not entirely true, I still want to keep it up, I just don't know if I'll be able to.

Anyway...this blog is just rambling, so I'm gonna take off and go study like a good girl...'til next time...

I was already in bed, had my stereo turned on, adjusted my pillows, set my alarm, and I got out of bed to turn on the computer. I had this overwhelming urge to blog, and now I really don't know why. I was just gonna write in my journal, but I remembered I left that in my car, which is parked on the other side of the complex. But that's okay...

Spring break is over and I am left with the feeling of apathy. Well, not completely, I did study tonight, but I just don't want to be here. It took so much for me to get in my car yesterday and make the trip back to Norman. It's crazy. I really don't know why. But break was good. I got to spend a lot of time with my family. I love to do that. There was a time when I just wanted to get out of Jay and stay away from everyone there, but with all of the events of the past two years, I've really realized how important my family is to me. I really can't live without them.

I've been thinking a lot lately about the Fall. I don't know if I'm coming back. I really want to graduate and go somewhere else (preferably NE), but I can't guarantee that's what I'll be doing. I also feel this "urge" to go back home and hang out there for a bit to help my parents out. It's been a crazy past couple of days---my mind is everywhere.

So, I finally got to talk to my friend that I mentioned a while ago. I was thinking that maybe I was being ignored...geez, leave it to me to make it all about me! ~Anyway...he's just been going through some strange things (which I knew) and he didn't really want to be around anyone or talk---as if I don't know that feeling. So, I understand where he's coming from in that perspective. But we got to hang out and talk a little. He seems to be doing better, I think things are settling a bit. That's good.

I was reading my friend's blog today. She is such a beautiful person with some amazing insight. I always like reading her blogs--I feel better after I do. The most recent topic was about boys complaining about not having girlfriends. Wow, I can relate to her about the guy friend thing. She has an interesting perspective on this situation and I like what she had to say. It was actually kinda funny.

So I'm trying this vegetarian thing. lol. We'll see how long this lasts. Actually, I'm trying to make it to the end of the semester. Sara says I'm practically a vegetarian anyway, so I may as well commit. I think I'll really miss chicken though. lol. It's weird. I am wondering though, can I eat eggs? I mean they were a potential chicken...It really doesn't matter, I don't like eggs anyway, but sometimes I crave scrambled eggs. But I didn't buy any tonight when I went shopping...we'll see.

Lol...another Seth Green moment. I actually watched Buffy the Vampire Slayer last night b/c he was on it. Not a very good show, but he was pretty cute. I seriously don't know what it is about him *rolls eyes*. He's not really conventionally cute, but there's jsut something about him. Maybe b/c he's such a little guy, I dunno. I do know that it's not his characters that he plays (Scott Evil, a werewolf?, etc), but I really like him in interviews and stuff. He just seems really sincere. I guess the nerdy-ness appeals to me. lol.

Well, I guess I should crash since I have to get up and study and then make an appearance at work tomorrow night. Anyway...'til next time...

Today was the CCFI volunteer luncheon. It was a lot of fun. I hung out with some friends and had a nice lunch. WE got free stuff from CCFI for being volunteers---I now own a CCFI book bag, which is great b/c I've been wanting one. Anyway...afterwards, I came home and changed and then met my friend, Tami, at B&N to study. Although we couldn't find a table, so we left and went to Borders---B&N definitely needs more tables. We grew tired of studying so we walked to the mall to get something to eat. I also bought Josefina a gift certificate from Hot Topic--and I got to see the cute guy again, lol. We went to Old Navy and bought flip-flops---2/$5---could you ask for more? Then we went to a movie...

So, I finally got to see 'Mona Lisa Smile.' I absolutely loved it. One of the best movies I've seen in a while. I really identified with Julia Roberts' character and then when Julia Stiles' character tells her abt the marriage and what not, I was like---yeah, Mel, remember to look at it from both sides. Although it still doesn't make any sense to me why girls would go to college if their intentions are to just stay at home. It's so strange---I realize this movie was set in the 50's, but this does still occur. I witnessed that last semester in my sociology class. One girl readily admitted to only being in college to find a husband that would hopefully allow her to 'not work' for a living. That's a great dream, but why go through the college thing if that's what your intentions are? I dunno. Then I began thinking of how I would have looked at things if I had been in college in the 50's. At my age, women were already b married and had at least one child. Would I still hold the same values of independence that I regard so highly? Would I be the same woman that I am today? Or would I be married? Would I have been happy to have gone to college and then "Oh, yay! i have a ring on my finger and now I can be as happy as I ever wanted to be." How would I seriously have been if that was the norm? It's not that I'm such a rebel now and I go against every norm---but I do have my standards and I know what I want. I dunno. People may tell me that I would have been the same, but maybe not. I've always seen myself as influenced by the 70's :). If I had been born before then, would I have been influenced by that decade? Who knows...All I do know is that I did see some things in a new perspective. Well, maybe not new, but a perspective revisited. It was good. Anyway...'til next time...

I'm not a big fan of country music. Most of it seems really cheesy to me, but of course, my passions lie with Linkin Park, Weezer, Nirvana, etc...'angry music' as Sara calls it. However, I am very drawn to Brad Paisley. This is not a new thing and I have never hid this fact. I like his songs---well, mostly just the funny ones, the others I don't pay much attention to. But I like his humor---it's great. Men that can laugh at themselves are very attractive. It's just a fact. I guess I don't so much notice the guy's smile, but if the guy is smiling. That's what makes for wonderful people. Take the guy at Hot Topic for example, lol. ;) He's not standard cute---kinda 'nerdy cute' (Rivers, Chester). But he's so nice and so funny that that makes him very cute. And he has great taste in music---how do I know? b/c he plays the music he likes when he's working---we seem to agree on a lot of it. Okay...tangent...

So, I've decided to start journaling again. I do realize that is what I do on this little piece of the net, but I mean really journaling. I was inspired last night when I saw a journal. I just had to buy it and then immediatley write in it. I had intended it to be a 'prayer journal' of sorts, but my first entry was pretty personal. i think it may turn out to be a little of both. Just writing whenever the mood strikes---creative, non-creative---whatever comes to mind, heart, and soul. I guess that means I'll have to take it everywhere I go. Shouldn't be a problem, since I hardly ever carry any books.

So, I went outside earlier and it was raining again. I thought that was a little odd, b/c i don't think it rained today besides that time. and it didn't last very long. But it was nice. I always welcome the rain.

And now I'm trying to decide where to go to church on Sunday. I realize it's only 12:30 a.m. on Saturday morning, but I've been thinking about it. I'm not sure. My friend Tami goes to Trinity---I dunno about that. My other friend, Tammy, goes to Wildwood. I used to go there. I'm not sure if I should go back. I really don't know. But I guess I have an entire day to decide, so we'll see.

Anyway...'til next time...